I Am Changing
from Dreamgirls
Oh, I can't wait for the movie!
Look at me
Look at me
I am changing, tryin' every way I can
I am changing, I'll be better than I am
I'm trying-to find a way to understand
But I need you, I need you-I need a hand
I am changing, seeing everything so clear now
I am changing, I'm gonna start right now, right here
I'm hoping to work it out, and I know that I can
But I need you, I need a hand
All my life I've been a fool
Who said I could do it all alone
How many good friends have I already lost
How many dark nights have I known
Walking down that wrong road, there was nothing I could find
All those years of darkness-can make a person blind
But now I can see
I am changing, tryin every way I can
I am changing, I'll be better than I am
But I need a friend-to help me start all over again,
oh-that would be just fine
I know it's gonna work out this time
'Cause this time I am-This time I am
I am changing, gonna get my life together now
I am changing, yes, I know how
I'm gonna start again, I'm leaving my past behind
I'll change my life-I'll make a vow
And nothing's gonna stop me now...hey
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Will I always hate myself on some level? Maybe, but not on every level.
I am changing-
I wanted to be a story teller. I wanted to have something to say at parties. But I felt like I had no voice.
Now, I've found my voice. I figure out my stories here. I labor over them because it does not come easy for me. But, having them worked out in advance, I can tell my stories. I can use my voice. And I'm building a skill that was never strong before, I know that I have something worth saying. I'm participating much more.
I love this blog! It's a secret you know. Especially since I use it for therapy too, and I put in my most scathing and often wrongheaded thoughts. And I see them, and I know they're wrong and I fix it.
I am changing. Tryin' every way I can to be better than I am. I'm a student at the Actors Conservatory of the Studio Theatre - just to change who I am, to change how I think, and to change what is possible in my life. I am so proud of that. I can't wait to get back. My next class is Improvisation I.
I think I don't hate myself as much as I did. I'm looking forward to tomorrow.
I am changing-
I wanted to be a story teller. I wanted to have something to say at parties. But I felt like I had no voice.
Now, I've found my voice. I figure out my stories here. I labor over them because it does not come easy for me. But, having them worked out in advance, I can tell my stories. I can use my voice. And I'm building a skill that was never strong before, I know that I have something worth saying. I'm participating much more.
I love this blog! It's a secret you know. Especially since I use it for therapy too, and I put in my most scathing and often wrongheaded thoughts. And I see them, and I know they're wrong and I fix it.
I am changing. Tryin' every way I can to be better than I am. I'm a student at the Actors Conservatory of the Studio Theatre - just to change who I am, to change how I think, and to change what is possible in my life. I am so proud of that. I can't wait to get back. My next class is Improvisation I.
I think I don't hate myself as much as I did. I'm looking forward to tomorrow.
posted by Vig @ 9:44 AM
2 comments
2 Comments:
Wow, you've been very chatty lately, where the heck have I been.
First, I've been thinking about your momma lately, It's so hard to see your parents get old, it's even worse when they're sick...I'm still praying for your miracle.
Next, I can see(I mean read)that there's a change going on especially when you talk about Rolf. What I don't understand is why you hate yourself? I guess its hard to see yourself as others do, you seem to have so much going for you, especially the most important thing, people that love you. And talent, that's so much more than most. I say, good for you, keep up the good work, you're worth it.
What a great chef you are, I think you need to come over here and make my birthday dinner next week, hehehe, In my dreams.
Have a good weekend
I would love to through you a birthday dinner party!
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