Morose Stupidity

I am so deeply in this depression now. The signs are all there, the drinking, pornography, obsessive thoughts, feeling stupid, feeling worthless, wishing I were dead, planning my death, screwing up my relationship, selfishness, oversleeping, looking a bit grungy too. (I've been in this place many times.)

It can be alarming, yet, oh, such a bore.

Well, I need to face a pile of work which is good. Then I'm going to try and write myself out of this messed up mind.